Sleep

How is it possible to do absolutely nothing all day and still be to tired to even try and socialize? I literally woke up late, didn't go to class and then watched some movies. And yet, I feel so done with this day. I'm so exhausted and in pain from this stupid excuse of a life. I wish I could truly say I have no desire to be normal and have fun with people. If that were true I'd have no problem at all with just shutting myself in my room and sleeping forever. But no. I torture myself by listening to the people laughing and having fun in the next room and keep my door open with the desperate hope that one of the social, happy douches will want to talk to me. Except I really don't want to speak to anyone. Why can't I just want one or the other and freaking act on it. Too tired I suppose. Too disenchanted with this crap.